Friday, January 18, 2013

What a difference 7 weeks can make...

Seven weeks weeks ago, our lives changed forever. Hudson Philip Cook entered our lives in an unexpected way at 3:45 pm. (Read about that here). The Lord was with us every step of the way. We continue to give God the glory for the great things He has done.

Today, January 18th is my original due date. I thought I would just now be meeting my son for the first time. Instead, I've already had seven wonderful weeks to get to know him.

He was in the NICU for a few weeks after his birth. Those were some hard days - I was trying to recover from a traumatic birthing experience and deal with the emotions of having a baby. I still have no memory of that Friday through Sunday morning. Not only did I not remember the events surrounding Hudson's birth, but I was not able to take care of him every minute of the day. I had to trust him to the care of the wonderful nurses at the hospital.  I remember feeling guilty for not being able to be with him 24/7. It was hard to "feel" like his mom.

A wise friend gave me some advice one morning that I clung to - she told me "Don't think about the hours you're not with him. Every minute you hold him is just extra time - you didn't even think he would be born yet." And from that morning on, it was easier for me to look at our time with Hudson in the NICU as a gift.

 I didn't know that by my due date I would already have his face memorized. I didn't know that he would already recognize me as his mom. I didn't know he would already have smiled at me. I didn't know that I would already have so many incredible memories of this little miracle. I didn't know that I would already love him this much.

As I looked through many pictures that documented Hudson's growth, my heart was overwhelmed. And so, I've collected some of my favorite faces he makes, some of my favorite instagrams, and a few pictures documenting his progress so far. And the words to this song couldn't be any more perfect.

Hudson, we can't wait to be able to share this amazing story with you. 
I know God has big plans for you. 
"We pray you'll hear Jesus in it when you're older." 

Hudson 7 Weeks from sothecooksaid on Vimeo.

                                                        "You're The Best Song" 
                                                                 Bethany Dillon
                                                              (feat. Shane Barnard)

                                                  Good morning

                                 You and the sun are up before I'm ready

But ready or not, you need me

So here I am

I'm learning that in the long hard days
There is beauty
Do you know my favorite place to see it
It's when I look at you

And though I'm tired now
You're worth every sleepless night
You're worth it all, cause I know...

You're the best song I'll ever write
And we're humming and dancing through the years together
You're the best song I'll ever write
And I pray you'll hear Jesus in it when you're older

I remember when you were just a heartbeat that I heard
and now our eyes meet
Forever is not enough to love you


Every prayer for you is like a seed in the ground
Every tear I cry is like rain
And in its due season
I pray a harvest will be found
Your heart and mouth confessing Jesus' name
Your heart and mouth confessing Jesus' name

Birth Announcement by my sister, Amy Howland
Some pictures in the NICU by Boyd and Olson Photography 


  1. I know you will be shocked to hear I am crying my eyes out... Beautiful video, song and pics... Such a beautiful testimony and truth in who He is and what He can do...

  2. Love this! You both make great parents! I love how you have taken such a potentially negative situation and used it to glorify God.

    My favorite picture is when you are holding Hudson in front of the Christmas tree. You are looking up at Jeremiah obviously still in love. Precious!